Katie

Hey everybody! I missed you all. Thanks for the constant e-mails. So a certain someone wrote me a HUGE letter telling me why I should continue with my live-journal as well as my myspace. I wont say any names... *cough*dan*cough*! So look I'm on.
So as most of you know Barsen and I broke up at the beginning of March. Very few of you know why and to my disgretion, I'm afraid I will not fuel the rumors. After moving out with Barsen I lived with Josh for a month tops before I returned to my parents. That, however, is an easier situation to explain. Josh= angel. Josh's roommate= ass. Josh-working-to-pay-bills + his-roommate-and-me-home-all-the-time= HELL! I'm staying with my parents until graduation. Which is on June 8th, 7pm, at Wings Stadium! (For those of you with no patientce, *cough*dan*cough*)
Do you remember how depressed I was all the time? And how insecure? And overly possesive? Not anymore. I wish you all could see me now. I'm so happy! And it shows. I dyed my hair a red-brunette and it looks fab!
As for social matters, Barsen and I are still friends and we're dealing with ex stuff. As for any new prospects??? No. I'm going to work on myself and become a "me" and "I" before a "we" and "us".
Thanks for your care and love! Write me soon!

So my summer was in actuality pretty cool... minus a few unwanted details. The parties were awesome! (Props to Tabby and her boy)And now that schools started up again I don't feel like such a loser. I have my first date next friday- like the first one I've had in FOREVER and I'm really nervous.... I thing I'm gonna call it off. NE who, my classes rock with exception to dropping Mr.Lancharte's College English.
Oh and for all of you who still love me, I have good news! I just saved a bunch of.... wait no, I'm ungrounded. My parentals have also made my curfew a little more flexible so CALL ME!!!!! I want out of the house!
Props to Nikki and her first boyfriend.
And that's about all.
Luv ya!

Awesome party last night... still tired....
tonight was sweet... Dan (not Danny) was awesomely fine....
... he was so sweet. I was so down and he picked me up and made me feel so good about myself....
props to Dan
props to Tabby for inviting him
and big props to Barsen for making me feel down in the first place....

I said it ALMOST mactched.....



~FORGET~

Forget his name, Forget his face
Forget his kiss and warm embrace
Forget the love that once was true
Remember now there’s someone new

Forget the love you two once shared
Forget the fact that he once cared
Forget the time you spent together
Remember now he’s gone forever

Forget his answers never wrong
Forget him when they play your song
Forget how close you once were
Remember now he’s close to her

Forget you memorized his walk
Forget the way he used to talk
Forget working late on the play
Remember now he’s gone away

Forget the way he used to phone
Forget the times you were alone
Forget he made your dreams come true
Remember now he’s someone new

Forget his gentle teasing way
Forget you saw him every day
Forget the things you used to do
Remember now she loves him too

Forget the thrill when he walked by
Forget he never made you cry
Forget the way he said your name
Remember now it’s not the same

Forget the way he wanted hugs
Forget the tender soft back rubs
Forget the way he held you close
Remember now he likes her the most

Forget the prom, Plans for the coast
Forget the cute way he used to boast
Forget the times he held your hand
Remember now that he’s her man

Forget the lilies that made you smile
Forget he loved you for a while
Forget the butterflies away
Remember he went to her to stay

Forget the basketball at night
Forget that you shared just one fight
Forget that two weeks hurt so bad
Remember he wont make her sad

Forget the times that went so fast
Forget them all, They’re in the past
Forget he said “I’ll leave you never”
Remember now he’s hers forever


and ha! we're back together....
*happy dance* *shake, shake, shake*

Does anyone know anything about an upset stomach that only shows up at night? Cuz my stomach feels like it's competing in the Olymics (and winning) every time I try to go to bed. I wanted to go to bed at a reasonable hour last night... because I'm a crack head and I need to get up at 5. (ok, no crack but w/e)So I try to go to bed at 9: I can't my stomach feels gross. 9:30: can't my stomach feels gross. 10: still can't. 10:30 comes along and I decide to go to bed anyhow. Bad move! I lay down and it gets worse.... This is like the 4th day in a row... my body is weird.

So I finally get to sleep and I swear 5 minutes later Terri comes in and says "It's 6, wake up!" Ugh! So now I'm sitting at my desk, I've already had 2 caffeinated beverages and I wont wake up! But the day must go on.... And hey, obviously Barsen and Danny still care because they took my random questionnaire. Well, they love me or they were REALLY bored! Props for them.

So I suppose I'll check my friends sites and then call Barsen... I wonder what he has to say that may want me to punch him....??????? huh....

WILL YOU....
[_] go out with me?
[_] give me your number? (_ _ _) _ _ _- _ _ _ _
[_] kiss me?
[_] let me kiss you?
[_] watch a movie with me?
[_] take me out to dinner?
[_] let me drive you somewhere?
[_] cut some rug with me?
[_] take a shower with me?
[_] have a fling with me?
[_] let me buy you a drink?
[_] buy me a drink?
[_] take me home for the night?
[_] let me sleep in your bed?
[_] sing car karaoke w/me?
[_] re-post this for me to answer your questions?
[_] give me a piggyback ride?
[_] come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere? J/W
[_] lock me in your room and take advantage of me?
[_] lick my cheek?
[_] dance with me?
[_] let me make you breakfast?
[_] help me with homework?
[_] tickle me to death?
[_] let me tickle you?
[_] stick up for me if I was being put down?
[_] play strip poker with me?
[_] get wasted with me?
[_] get high with me?
[_] instant message me?
[_] greet me in public?
[_] hang out with me?
[_] bring me around your friends?

D0 Y0U...
[_] think im cute?
[_] think im hot?
[_] want to kiss me?
[_] want to cuddle with me?
[_] want to hook up with me?
[_] want to have sex with me?

ARE WE...[_] aquintences?
[_] friends?
[_] in a relationship?
[_] gonna have kids?

AM I...
[_] smart?
[_] cute?
[_] funny?
[_] cool?
[_] loveable?
[_] adorable?
[_] compassionate?
[_] annoying?
[_] great to be with?
[_] attractive?
[_] mean?
[_] odd?

HAVE Y0U EVER...
[_] thought about me?
[_] thought there might be an "us"?
[_] thought about hooking up with me?
[_] found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
[_] wished I were there?
[_] grabbed me?
[_] had a crush on me?
[_] idolized me?
[_] wanted my number?
[_] had a dream about me?
[_] been distracted by me?
[_] wanted to have sex with me?

ARE Y0U...
[_] done with this survey?
[_] happy you know me?
[_] mad at me?
[_] thinking about me?
[_] gonna love me forever?

Your Star Wars Pickup Line

"I may look like an Ewok, but I'm all Wookie where it counts, baby."

Oh yeah, that's good.

So for all of you who are WAY more computer/livejournal smart than me, how in goddz name do you put pics on your live journal.

My life is rated PG-13.
What is your life rated?

Faye13's LJ stalker is stronzoleblanc!

stronzoleblanc is stalking you because a little birdie told them you talked behind their back. They are also slowly poisoning you!

Prom was by far a major success. The day started off a bit lame and it took me FOREVER to realize that my hair would not cooperate... so I just left it down. My dress was gorgy, (strapless, black velvet, w/sparkles), and when my date showed up at 5:30- it was like "Holy freaking goodies, what did you do with my boyfriend and are you sure you tied him up tight enough!?!" He was so awesomely hott! My mom took pics...(I'll try to post them later. He wore a cute black suit with a gold vest and tie.) and then we went to Dragon Inn, a cute Chinese place downtown. Thats when the fun started. We sat there wiating and waiting for the rest of our group to show and when they finally did they were almost an hour late. Aaron showed up with Demi (Aaron had an orange vest and Demi's dress was...nice), Richard showed up with his girlfriend Jessika (Richard had a green vest that matched Jessi's awesomly hott sparkle green dress), Justin showed up with McKayla (meh to both), Josh showed up stag (major props to him and his cool blue vest) and Matt showed up with his girlfriend Wendy, (Matt had a cute baby blue vest and Wendy had a nice dress but horrible additude). Dinner was fun. Then we went to prom. Were showed up fashonably late(it started at 8:30, we showed up at 9), took some pics, then started dancing. We danced a-l-m-o-s-t non-stop until the last dance at 11:20. We took some more pics, and I went home (12).
Minus how early it ended, it was great. I absolutly loved the corsage (lily)and Barsen said he had a blast which, duh!, was my goal since it was his senior prom. I'll post pics when I get a chance.

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When's the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you?

One night a guy and a girl were driving home from the movies. The boy sensed there was something wrong because of the painful silence they shared between them that night. The girl then asked the boy to pull over because she wanted to talk. She told him that her feelings had changed, and that it was time to move on. A silent tear slid down his cheek as he slowly reached into his pocket and passed her a folded note. At that moment, a drunk driver was speeding down that very same street. He swerved right into the drivers seat, killing the boy. Miraculously, the girl survived. Remembering the note, she pulled it out and read it. "Without your love, I would die."

PUT THIS IN YOUR JOURNAL IF YOU CARE ABOUT SOMEONE SO MUCH THAT YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT THEM!!! (even your best friends)

If you would jump in front of a bullet for your girlfriend, boyfriend, x-girlfriend, x-boyfriend,best friend, family member, or just a person you love, then put this in your journal! You people know who you are.

Very uber confused...
I need a hug....

I really wish I could do something fun tomorrow. Maybe I'll give Dan a call. Maybe not. I would call Lino. Unsure of our position... Dunno if we're cool yet... he might still want space....

Nikki...might call...don't want to really...

I need coffee. I want a red head to play with... I wonder what happened to Tad.?.?.?.

More thoughts enter my confusing mind. I feel bad for PJ. He needs a hug more than I do. I really wish I could have coffee and talk to someone about my problems. Just sit in a coffee house and talk... like I used to. Damn Van Java for abandoning me.

I feel unloved.
I need a hug...
Maybe a kiss too....

*points at person*

THE BIONIC FINGER!!!!!!!

*sticks finger up your nose*

....now don't you feel violated?

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.


What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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You're Gangsta Bitch Barbie. You're tough and you
like it rough, and of course you like to pop a
cap in any wiggers ass.


If You Were A Barbie, Which Messed Up Version Would You Be?
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You are a maniac
killer.
It doesn't matter who they are and what they
have or haven't done. You still want to kill
them. And for a simple reason only; it's fun.
Seeing people in pain is like ecstasy. Maybe
you have some sort of mental problems or you
are this way because of previous deep scars,
only you know. But now you are sadistic and
maybe you only like to see a special group of
people be in pain (e.g. preps). However you are
not the most social person in the bunch and
people think you are weird. That bothers you
somewhat but atleast you can entertain yourself
with daydreaming about killing them. After all,
they have no idea what's coming.

Main weapon: Explosives and torture
equpiment
Quote: "Insanity: a perfect
rational adjustment to an insane world" -
R.D. Lang
Facial expression: Wicked smile

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I had spare time...

Penguins, dominatrix and the bionical finger. lol- Josh is funny!

You ever feel like you just keep doing the same things every day and all you really want is change? I'm stuck. I need something new, something to preoccupy my mind when I start thinking those inevitable thoughts of how I can help other people. I need something new.
I suppose the play helps. It keeps my mind in k-zoo at least. I don't think about the shit between Laura and PJ (I hope they fix things soon), I don't think about Lino or the mess that was ensued there. I don't even think about Nikki and how she's killing herself with this intensive diet. They all bug me. Most of the time. I want to help PJ and Laura. I understand that they're both hurt but they're not gonna get back together until PJ goes out on a limb for her. Not a life or death situation but one of those corney embarrasses himself in front of the whole school kind of thing you see in the movies. She's hurt PJ, just give her some time! And I have no idea what to do about Lino. We tried the friend thing and it never works. I either need to avoid him (which I don't want to do) or things get all awkward and stuff when I get the chance to talk to him. It's his damn fault you know! He says he wants more but he wants less.... WHAT THE HELL...... hph. Anyways, I suppose Nikki bothers me the most. she's lost 40 pounds and she doesn't plan to quit until she's a size 5... I don't think she'll quit even when she's a size 0 but I'll shut up. I have to wait until she actually messes up before I just down her throat.

THANK GOD FOR THE DIVINERS!!!!!!!!!

It takes my mind of my friends. I can concentrate on how much I love the theater and acting. The crew, for the most part, is really cool. Anthony is really funny and probably the only sane one there....too bad he's almost never there. Di and her boyfriend are almost always there and she is really hott! But entirely straight and a little too prissy for me. Ellie... well, our personalities clash so we don't really get along.... same thing with Shakia. Eun is REALLY cool. So is Fritz! LOL he makes me laugh so much... it's ingenious. Sonita is nice. She was in my psych class and we never really talked but whatever. Dylan pisses me off... damn Homeschool! Hey, but Hoop makes up for it. He's really cute! In that, way-too-cool-for-me-but-WOW!!! kinda way. Andy is hott it that my-boyfriends-best-friend way. And then there's Josh. Josh is cool. I like hanging out with him. He's that guy friend I've just been dying to have. The kinda guy I'm not attracted to at all but love to hang out with and flirt with. I'm really glad he's around.
I wish I had answers to my questions in Holt but I suppose it serves me right for trying to hang on to friendships that I knew were.... unhealthy.

I'm glad I have cool people to hang out with here.
<3 you!

I am so wet! and not the good kind either!It started raining really bad here. I hate being a good person. A guy in my class, Devin, started freaking out about how he broke one of the windows on his car and how he NEEDS to cover it. I went with him to help. I'm drenched. My hair is wet, my shirt, my bra, my pants, my underwear, my shoes, even my toes are sqwidging around in water because my socks are dreanched. I wont write much cuz I'm scared the computer is gonna zap me but yesterday was cool. I hung out with Josh and watched Ocean's 12 and then I came home, had chocolate icecream and then got to kiss Barsen for an hour. It was really awsome!
love ya! <3

You scored as Satanism. Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Satanism! Before you scream, do a bit of research on it. To be a Satanist, you don't actually have to believe in Satan. Satanism generally focuses upon the spiritual advancement of the self, rather than upon submission to a deity or a set of moral codes. Do some research if you immediately think of the satanic cult stereotype. Your beliefs may also resemble those of earth-based religions such as paganism. </td> Satanism 83% Paganism 79% Buddhism 58% atheism 54% Judaism 54% Hinduism 46% Islam 38% agnosticism 33% Christianity 29% Which religion is the right one for you? (new version) created with QuizFarm.com

I don't reallyknow much about satanism but I suppose it doesn't really surprise me.... I think that I beleive more in paganism but whatever....

So I'm hanging out in Leesie's 2nd hour. It's cool. I'm on the brink of insanity cuz I'm bored. This weekend rocked hard. It was full of shopping, walking and really cute guys! Yesterday was cool too just cuz I got to hang out with my baby. He is so good lookin ya'll. I'll try to put a picture of him up soon. NEwho, I'm kinda supposed to be doing work so I'll fly but oohhhh, some of the guys in this school should be illegle to look at!
Kisses!
And Hi Lee! :)

AND HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TO MAGGIE MOO! SHES NOW SIXTEEN, ISNT THAT JUST COOL???

Finish the sentences:

*1) I am a(n)...very perrty gurly girl. :)
* 2) My ex-boy/girlfriend was...a skater boy (kinda Avril-ish)
*3) I'm just a(n)...sucker for cute one liners and kisses
* 4) Maybe I should...get a job
*5) I love...the theater, Barsen, Nikki, and being able to really have fun.
* 6) ____________ is/are cute/beautiful... night skys, art, the water on a blue-sky day
*7) Looking for...something new and fun, but wont get me in trouble
* 8) I don't understand...chemistry, why my brain wont fix things I know are wrong...and me
*9) I lost my...self esteem and fearlessness not that long ago, I want them back....
* 10) My boy/girlfriend is...arrogant, annoying, rude, immiture, agrivates me but I love him
*11) In darkness, I...sleep
* 12) Why do I...countinue to play games with him?????
*13) Is there such a thing as...real love?
* 14) Does the...mall open at ten or noon?
*15) People say I'm...weird
* 16) Love is...complicated.
*17) You make me wanna...cry.
* 18) Somewhere, someone is...thinking of me
*19) Is it true that...i'm hott?
* 20) I will always...remember, what little I remember.
*21) Forever is...a long time.
* 22) I never want to...feel that way ever again, you know what I mean...

So you guessed it. Barsen and I broke up. But we're cool now, we didn't stay that way for even 24 hours before we decided to get back together. I like being with him more than I like playing games...that says something I guess. I'm kinda mad that I have to go to my mom's this weekend but I suppose I'll make the best of it. Yesterday was the extent of fun! I hope my entire summer consides of a billion days just like yesterday. School's almost over so I'll split but goodness, if I didn't know better I'd assume that I was *gasp* actually content and happy with how things are at the time. Ha... but we all know that can't be the case, right? {pause}...right?